To Make You Come Back to Me

“I love you.”

Kaisser kissed me upon whispering those words. His voice and touch sent shivers to my spine and coldness to my skin. But I didn’t mind the hype of my nerves, I let him own my cavern the way he wants it to do.

His hands caressed my cheek as he deepened the kiss. I’ve never felt this crazy before. I’ve never felt this excited before.

All the blood in my body came rushing to my cheeks as he laid me on his bed, hovering on top of me. He continued to kiss me as he placed his hands on both sides of my waist.

I let out a moan the moment his tongue found its entrance into my mouth, licking and owning every corner of it. I let him do what he keeps on doing and made myself enjoy it.

Tonight, I’ve decided to take it to the next level. I wanted to give him my everything. It’s not that I don’t care about the consequences, but as a goodbye gift, I want to make him to own me fully.

His hands roamed around the hem of my dress, finding their way inside, towards my bare stomach.

Every touch that he does makes me want him more. Every kiss he offers makes me want to go to heaven. I am no saint nor an angel but these sensations make me feel heavenly. It’s like I’m with the most high. Or am I just high? High up from my love for Kaisser Bennett.

I gasped when I felt his hands cup and massage my breasts, circling and kneading them.

“Kai…” I couldn’t recognize that voice. Is it mine?

“Hmmm…” Kai moaned as he buried his face on my neck, sucking that one sensitive spot. I couldn’t stop the moan from escaping my mouth as I felt the electricity in me rising up. I’m feeling even higher.

His kisses lingered on my neck for a few more minutes before traveling down to my shoulders, down to my chest. He raised my dress to my head taking it off before throwing it somewhere around the room. He trailed light kisses on my chest before reaching my now exposed breasts, sucking my nipple while his other hand played with the other.

I’m going crazy. I’m damn going to crazy with all these feelings setting in right now. I feel so hot, yet I don’t want anything but more. I want this hotter. I want this more and more.

“Ugh…Kaisser,” I moaned as I felt one of his hand touch the center of my thighs. My mind went haywire the moment I felt that same hand tugging the garter of my underwear.

His lips crashed on mine on a very passionate and determined kiss. I tugged on the hem of his shirt and removed it from him. My heart almost dropped when I saw his toned body. So hot, so damn hot.

I didn’t even notice that he finally got rid of my underwear until he parted my legs wide while his thumb circled on my clit. I almost shouted in glee. I’ve never known doing this would give me numerous unknown sensations that I have never felt before.

He unbuckled his belt and placed his pants down. I was so amazed when I saw how turned on he was. He’s right there in front of me—proud and very ready. He crashed his lips on mine again and making me lost in his own little tongue.

He was caressing my core when he stopped and looked at me with piercing brown eyes. “Are you sure you want do this?” he asked as he caressed my face. “We can stop now, honey. You don’t need to pretend you want this to happen—”

I stopped his words and pulled him closer to my face again, giving him a deep kiss. No, I don’t want to stop. This is my plan. This is what I should be doing now.

I want to feel him…even for the final time.

I hugged him tighter as I felt him poking on my core. Damn! I want him now. I don’t know how bad it would hurt but I want him in me now.

I shouted out loud when I felt him filling me up. A mix of pain and completeness is building up inside of me. This sure hurt like hell but the feeling of completeness made me feel really elated.

“Ssshhhh,” he hushed me as he wiped the tears I didn’t know have escaped from my eyes. “I’m sorry.” He said it more than five times before offering me the deepest kiss of the night.

I was lost in his kisses when I felt him slowly moving in and out of me. The pain is slowly disappearing and another emotion was taking in. Pleasure.

I feel him quickening the pace until I felt like I wanted to reach something. I don’t know what that would be but I still want to reach it no matter what. I need to reach it now.

All the happiness in my life can never match this bliss I am feeling right now. I feel like I’m about to enter the happiest place—heaven.

My heart started to race fast the moment he kept on hitting that one spot that made me moan for his name over and over again.

“Eunique…”

“Kai…”

It took a few more thrusts before Kai collapsed on top of me. He rolled to my side and pulled me close, kissing the side of my head. “I’m fucking in love with you, Eunique James. Soon you’ll be my wife,” he whispered, making my heart ache in pain.

Tears started to fill my eyes as I heard those words from him. I swallowed a huge lump in my throat before saying, “I love you, too.”

I love him. I love him to the depths of my being but I’m leaving you right now.

I’m sorry, Kaisser Bennett.

I’m really sorry.

“We hate to let you go, Miss James. You are one of my most prized employees,” Anthony Son, my boss, said when I handed in my resignation letter.

I gave him a small smile. “I’m sure you’ll find someone even better than me, Sir,” I replied.

He sighed and nodded. “Are you sure you’re ready to go back to London?” he asked.

I nodded and smiled weakly. “Yes, Sir. It’s been years. I think it’s time.”

It’s been four years since I left the United Kingdom for my parents’ approval. I hated leaving but I didn’t have a choice. If I didn’t go, my parents would despise me. This is their dream for me—to become successful in my own field, for greener pasture.

It pained me every single day that I was away from my homeland. My heart clenches whenever I see the things he’s given me. I know I don’t deserve any of those gifts the moment I left him for my dream but…Is it wrong to be happy about the things that used to give me joy? Is it wrong to be glad for the moments we shared?

I don’t know.

Sure, it was hard for me. But I know it’s harder for him. I left him without a word. I left him after that fateful night. I left him after giving everything to him. I know he must feel really betrayed. If I were him, I would never forgive me.

“Eunique, are you going to apply for the open HR positions in different companies?” Mom asked me.

I just arrived a week ago but my parents are pressuring me to find a job in an instant. “I don’t know, Mom. I want to chill for another week.”

She narrowed her eyes at me. Dad, too.

I bit my lip and looked down on the food on my plate. I know they wouldn’t want me to lax for another moment. Knowing my parents, I know how they are suckers for jobs, for work, for money.

“I heard Nildex is looking for a new Human Resource Head,” Dad butted in. “Why don’t you try to apply there? Nildex is a huge company. I’m sure you’ve got all the experience you need to be hired.”

Just hearing the name of the company, my whole body shivered. Sure I wanted to see him soon, but I don’t think this is the right moment.

“I’ll think about it,” I replied as I quietly ate. I know they wouldn’t understand my reason for declining this huge suggestion but I don’t think I can do it. Maybe in the future, but not right now.

My parents still said a lot of things before the dinner ended but I let them all go into one ear then out on the other. I thought doing what they wanted years ago would guarantee me an assurance that they wouldn’t meddle on my life in the future.

I was wrong.

Of course my parents would always have a lot to say on how I run my life and the decisions I make. I will never have the freedom I wanted.

My sister, Eujean, looked up at me when she saw me all dolled up one night. She’s sitting on the couch while reading a magazine.

“Where are you going?” she asked me.

I shrugged. “Out with friends,” I replied.

She narrowed her eyes at me. “Did you tell Mom and Dad?” she asked again.

I rolled my eyes. “I’m twenty-five years old, Eujean. Do I really have to report everything I would do?” I narrowed my eyes at her. “And you, where did you go last night?” I asked he back. She went out last night and didn’t go home until it was three in the morning. I’m pretty sure she has more explaining to do than me.

She pursed her lips in a thin line. I know her. Eujean loves parties more than I do. She goes out for parties even at a school night. “Not your business,” she rolled her eyes.

I smirked. “If it’s not my business then don’t meddle with mine.” I told her before leaving her in the couch, muttering some words under her breath.

I don’t care though. My sister is a brat. And she hates me. A lot.

I’m used to all the cold treatment I am getting from my siblings. Out of all four, I am only close to the middle child, Eurick. The rest of them are brats.

“The party’s about to start, where are you?” Ashley Grant, one of my best friends, asked me through the phone.

“I’m driving over,” I replied. I am already on the road, beating the shit out of the night city traffic.

“You better be driving or I’m going to tell your momma that you’re out!” She’s trying to manipulate me.

“I am driving!” I insisted.

“You better! I’ll wait for you in the entrance,” she said before hanging up.

I shook my head and just drove to the bar she’s in. Ashley is always that one person who wanted to have fun. She is in love with freedom but at the same time, she loves to have validation.

And above all that, she’s Kristian Lowe’s fiancée. Kristian Lowe, Kaisser’s best friend.

I pulled over and handed my keys to the valet. “Thanks,” I muttered as the man smiled at me.

“You’re welcome, Miss Beautiful.”

I smirked just to fight the feeling to roll my eyes at him. What a flirt!

I walked to the entrance and saw Ashley standing there with our other girlfriends, Janice and Hannah.

“Eunique!” They all screamed when they saw me walking towards them.

I ran to them as they hugged me tight.

“Goodness gracious, girl! I missed you!” Janice beamed as she looked at me from head to foot. “You look even more beautiful!”

“Four damn years!” Ashley laughed. “Four damn years, Eunique James.”

I smiled and looked at them. “I missed you all, too,” I told them.

Looking at them right now, I can see the difference they have undergone for the past four years. They all look more mature and more corporate right now. Sure, they still have the same attitude but physically, they’ve changed a lot.

I wish I did change that way, too.

“Your hair looks better like that. Not too long, not too short.” Hannah grinned. “Any boyfriend?”

I smiled weakly. Boyfriend? I don’t even think I have moved on from him and they’re asking me if I have a boyfriend. I was too busy drowning in my memories with him to even look for someone to replace him. He can never be replaced. That’s for sure.

Even if he’d found someone to love after me, for me, he will never be replaced.

“Don’t tell me you’re single?” Janice’s eyes widened.

I bit my lip. What’s wrong with being single, anyway?

The three laughed at me. “Move on, girl!” They chorused.

Ashley held my arm. “Tonight, you’re getting over that guy from the past!” she beamed before pulling me inside the club.

The music is too loud but I like it that way. I missed going to clubs. Years ago, we used to chill in places like this. We dance. We celebrate.

But ever since the day I left him, I stopped going to parties. I can’t be happy anymore. I can’t be in happy celebrations anymore.

I looked around the dancefloor and suddenly dreamed of him there, looking at me, walking close to me to dance with me. I can feel his hand on my waist as he pulls me closer to his body. His cold breath runs through the nook of my neck and I close my eyes.

“Eunique,” Janice’s voice brought me back to the reality.

I grew disappointed that everything was but a dream—a dream that would never seem to happen. I left him alone, hurt and broken. How would I expect him to come to me with open arms?

I must be really stupid.

“Are you that excited to go to the dancefloor?” Janice laughed as she pulled me to one of the couches.

My eyes widened when I saw Kristian Lowe sitting there, beside Ashley. He looked at me and smirked. There’s something in his smirk that makes my heart fall from my chest. Kris being Kai’s closest friend sent anxiety rushing through my veins. For now, I would assume that Kai knows that I’m back.

But then…it’s been years and Kai must have someone else now. I hope he doesn’t.

Ashley looked at me, alarmed. “Oops. Sorry, Eunique. I invited Kris because he won’t let me come if he doesn’t come as well,” she told me.

I looked at all of them and smiled. “Yeah, sure. No biggie.” I replied and sat beside Janice who’s talking to someone on the phone.

“Martin, I’m not drinking, alright. Just chill.” She’s talking to her boyfriend on the phone. “Yes. I’ll text you when I get home. And yes. Sober. I’ll go home sober. My god!” She rolled her eyes as she hung up.

Hannah looked at me and shrugged. She handed me a drink. “Tequila?” she sheepishly grinned.

I accepted the drink and gulped it in one shot.

“How’s life, Eunique?” Kris asked out of nowhere.

I looked at him and smiled. He’s looking at me with eyes that are telling me how I have sinned against him or against his friend. “I’m good,” I replied. “You seem perfect, too.” I commented.

He smirked and slung his arm around Ashley’s shoulders. “Yes. I’m perfectly doing fine. We are perfectly doing fine.” He grinned.

I narrowed my eyes at him. I don’t know what he’s talking about but I don’t feel good about the we he is saying.

“That’s good,” I just replied and took another shot of tequila.

Kris stopped talking and was just busy with Ashley while I just drowned myself in stories and drinks with Janice and Hannah. I’ve narrated how my life in New York was and they were so thrilled they want to be in New York soon as well.

We only stopped when Kris stood up and nodded at someone behind. “Good thing you came,” he beamed.

“What the hell, dude? You said this is important.”

That voice…

I slowly turned around, scared of who I would see but turned anyway. And it seems like my world stopped moving when I saw the person I have been missing all these years…eye to eye.